Hey, friend.
Been 14 months since I last wrote to you; that was back in December 2024, and it’s now… March 2026.
In that maddeningly cryptic post, I said I was in the middle of a phoenix era — that was, indeed, true.
2023 was the destruction of a multitude of false beliefs, false identities, and idols; this was the year that so many of my professional and personal goals, so much of who I thought I was, burned away to ash.
2024 started, and it felt like I was stumbling blindly through the rubble of my own hopes and dreams (lol). It was a year of confusion, anger, and yet.. flowers still began sprouting up through the concrete.
2025 — well, 2025 still feels unreal (HINT: check out the photo for this post, heh.. more on this later).
And now, we’re in 2026.
You might be wondering why I took a step away from this blog.. why I went radio silent for 14 months.. why I didn’t provide any updates at all during that time.. and why I’ve suddenly come back now.
What I’ll share is that God led me through a season that wasn’t meant to be narrated while I was living it; it was meant to be felt, endured, and experienced with fully presence. Multiple areas of my life were unraveling — rapidly, simultaneously — and I didn’t understand what was happening, let alone know how to turn my Shakespeare-play-of-a-life into an insightful blog post for others to reflect on.
Career, friendships, family relationships, the place(s) I was living… somewhere along the way, I realized it wasn’t just my external ircumstances that were changing, it was my entire internal sense of selfhood. My identity, my worth, my whole understanding of “this is why I’m on this earth,” it was all being rewritten.
I found myself on my knees in the ashes of who I thought I was, holding the charred remnants of my former self in my hands in shock, unable to do anything but feel the slow burn of the death of my ego.
Fire purifies, and not everything survives a fire; only what will help me do what God is calling me to do next is what I need, and that is what survived the fire. The core of who I am; who He created me to be.
Underneath all of the self-inflicted distractions and procrastination, underneath what my parents dreamed I would become, underneath what the world tried to break and conform me into, underneath the layers of false identities I built to protect myself, underneath it all… was silence, simplicity, and a sacred stillness.
It was only Him, and all that was left of me — and “all” that was left of me, was the truth of who I’ve always been: His daughter. Made from love, to be loved, to bring love to as many souls as possible.
In other words…
I’M BACK.
